I have not been updating my blog frequently. Sometimes I wonder if I should continue this blog or not... is it time to pull the plug? Who wants to read it anyway? I dont get as much hits or comments as others. I have met some nice people through this blog ... some lasted ... some died off ...some felt they knew me from reading my blog ..... but most were too busy with their own lives....... some people when we finally met ... was so different from the way they project themselves in the blog.
I have been hurt, promises made which were broken, rejected, ignored ... I still dont understand how some people can just say things and dont mean it. To me .. "words without actions is dead" I have been hurt too many times by empty promises ... some say we will be best friends ... you mean so much to me etc ...but their actions tell another story. I used to forgive and forget and keep giving chances as I treasure friendships but over the years I realised that I could not go on living like this .... felt used and taken for granted. So I learn to move on .... to let bygones be bygones and just build walls around my heart ... to be stronger .. more resillient.