Thursday, 27 November 2008

Under the weather

I crashed my macbook last night ... I guess too much time on World of Warcraft. So I had to reformat and reinstall everything from scratch. This only happened like 3 times since I bought my macbook which is 2 yrs old now. Previously when I was using Windows XP I had to reformat and reinstall quite frequently. So had to stay up late reinstalling the OS and most important was installing Warcraft and getting the latest updates ...hehe. Currently playing a lvl 36 undead priest and I cant wait to get my shadow form when I am level 40.

Unfortunately this morning after I arrived at work, my nose became stuffed and I started sneezing ... now down with a fever and a bad flu. Duh and it is only half day. Need pop in some decongestant and my multivitamins. Hopefully it will clear up soon.

Anyway I am looking forward to the weekend .... I will be going back to Seremban .... I am getting involved in the Christmas program where I will be singing and there will be practice on Sundays. Really looking forward to it ... and I had not sang in ages .... hopefully wont croak like a frog :)

Wednesday, 26 November 2008

Back to work today

Got up at 530 am .... just lying in my bed ....I had a great weekend in Singapore catching up with old friends. Will update when I get my photos sorted out. I will not forget the trip as I was sweating plus plus in my car as the air cond broke down as soon as I drove into Singapore so I was driving in the heat for 3 days ... but thank God that it was a cloudy and rainy 3 days :)

Ok I better get ready to go to work. Take k guys.

Saturday, 22 November 2008

Landed in JB

Landed in JB and cytusm drove me around JB and we had wan ton mee for supper. He took me for a short tour around the city and we stopped to take pictures of some nice places .. will post the pics when I get back to KL.

Tomorrow I will drive to Singapore and spend the weekend there with some old friends :)

Good night and have a great weekend

Friday, 21 November 2008

I talk to God about everything ... I even ask for a parking place

I talk to God about every thing in my life. I tell Him about my ups and downs. I tell Him when I am hurting and lonely. I tell Him how thankful I am that He is part of my life. I talk to Him all the time ..... I talk to Him about my work, my finances, my health, my dreams and desires. I ask Him to search me and know me and lead me in the path that is right for me. I always pray that His will alone be done in my life and that He will use me to glorify Him alone.

Another thing I also ask Him for is a parking place whenever I drive to work in Hospital Kuala Lumpur. If I am 5 minutes late, the parking near to my office will be filled and I really hate double parking and blocking another car ... so usually I will end up parking at the farthest parking near the football field where it takes me about 10-15 minutes to reach my office by walking. Yesterday morning, I was frantically praying for a a parking place as I about 5 minutes past 730 am to reach the hospital...... drove near the covered parking and I noticed an empty spot but I thought it was reserved for someone else as there was a yellow label on the floor and there was a Toyota Vios following very closely behind... after I passed the spot only I realized that "Hey I have parked there before !!! " Oppss it was too late to reverse as the Vios was already squeezing into the parking place.... and I smiled to myself ..... God answers prayers but sometimes I am just too blind to see the answers and the blessing. I said a prayer of thanks to God for the parking place and for blessing the Vios driver and I asked Him to make me more alert and more receptive to the way He works and be alert when He answers my prayer.

Matthew 7:7 Holman Christian Standard Bible

Keep asking, and it will be given to you. Keep searching, and you will fine. Keep knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who searches finds, and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

Thursday, 20 November 2008

Day 2 : Asansol Part 3 after the orphanage visit

After the orphanage visit, we walked back to the home where we are staying. On the way we notice a peculiar sight which a common practice in India. Notice the things on the wall of the house ?

A closer view of the things put on the wall..... erm they are actually dried cow dung ... which they will use later as firewood to cook their meals. A very innovative way.
Back home after 15 minutes to a yummy lunch .... fresh vegetable salad ... very nice
Mutton curry with rice.

After lunch we took a short nap and decided to go out shopping before we go to Darjeeling tomorrow as our schedule was quite packed.
One of our local Indian friends drove us to town for some shopping. There were a lot of alleys like this one packed with shops.
The side walk was crowded with people and shops.
We managed to get some kurtas ( for guys ) and curidas ( for girls ) at the Mohan Shopping Centre.
Made a new friend at the shop .... anyway I gave up buying new clothes as they just did not have the size for me .... really need to lose weight :)

Wednesday, 19 November 2008

A reminder to myself

I like going through my old posts to remind myself of how far I have come in my life ... and also a reminder of how faithful God is to me.

I have been reading a lot of blogs lately and made some new blogger friends .... and it amazes me how creative they are. Some can really pour their heart out in words. Some can take breathtaking photos of nature, things and themselves...amazing. Some are very creative with photoshop ( I only know how to do the sharpness, levels, resize and put my watermark). Some can really cheer others up with their candid post. Some are very imaginative and very descriptive. Some can blog about anything under the sun. Some just ramble. And I realize that I am not one of them ... I can never blog like them ... I was telling Twilight Zone that I should stop blogging as I felt that I had nothing much to share .... I was not up to par with the others. I don't get many hits and I don't get many comments.

After going through my old posts ... I was reminded again why I started this blog at the first place. I realized that this is me .. take it or leave it and that I should never compare myself with the other bloggers as all of us are special and unique and we each have our own stories to tell. So I will be myself and remain true to why I started blogging at the first place. It is a reminder of God's goodness and faithfulness to me because I tend to forget sometimes how far He has walked with me in this journey called LIFE.

Thanks for visting me and dropping a line or two. And thanks to my silent readers as well .... do drop a line or two so that I can get to know you too.

From my previous post in 2005

Why do I blog ?

Hmmm was thinking about this question the whole day.... I was reminded why I blogged ... I started off wanted to tell of the goodness of God in my life ... yes in all my imperfection He loves me so unconditionally.

Oh my wandering heart .... so easy to stray from Him ... from the One person Who alone can fill the void/emptiness in me ... but yet I sometimes go around looking for substitutes to fill that aching void inside ... that is what I realise as I started reading other blogs .... all of us hurt and all of us have an emptiness within which need to be filled ..... we try to fill it with many things (alcohol, drugs, sex, chocolates, whatever to numb the pain) and yet we are not satisfied .... yeah we go looking for the next "fix" ...

We all want to be loved and to love and we will do whatever to get that sometimes ... I have done it too ... made a fool of myself ... a fool for love ... just to belong ... just to feel wanted ..... little did I know that I needed to realise that I belong to God ... and that I need not jump around and do things to win His heart as He already loves me anyway ... and that assurance gave me to peace to start loving myself and this enable me to love others with no string attached .... yeah He gives abundantly....

Yes it hurts ... life hurts ...... love hurts ..... when we make ourselves vulnerable to others ... we get hurt .... but hurt we must if we are ever to truly appreciate love ... yes we all need to go through it .... in the end do we want to continue to love and get hurt or shut the whole world out and keep to ourselves .... no man is an island and we all know that and feel that .... I am single and there are times I feel really lonely ... due the nature of my work ... when I am free .. my friends are not .. when I am working ... my friends are free .... and I work also during public holidays ... but life goes on ... yes the world still spins round and round.....

Well back to the reason why I blog... I am very forgetful and when I go through hard times I sometimes forget that God had brought me through so much in life. And this blog is a reminder to me about how far I have come in life ... yes still a long way to go ... unless some mishap occur in my life ... duh .... yes it is a reminder to me that whatever hard times or trials or headache or obstacles .... I will finally get throught it someday .... like after winter there is always spring ... yes there is always light at the end of the tunnel ... therefore I will continue to blog to remind myself to move on with life and not lose heart at setbacks because tomorrow is a new day and there is always hope when I dont give up ...... Life is meant to be lived to the fullest with it sweetness and bitterness ... and in the end I will emerge stronger ... and wiser ... hopefully .... so come let's walk together, you are not alone ... I am your fellow traveler ....

I love school holidays

I love school holidays !!!! I can get out of my apartment at 705 am in USJ and reach Hospital KL at 745am which is amazing ... otherwise it would have taken me one and a half hours on a normal day .... yippeee I have one month of "less" jam while driving to work. Though driving back from work is the same chaotic one hour plus plus long drive. Yesterday I was stuck in the jam from Sunway Pyramid and it took me ONE HOUR to reach my apartment. I am glad that I have a Perodua Kenari where I can just squeeze in and out of jams....too bad it could not fly me back.

Tuesday, 18 November 2008

Yippee Petrol price down to RM2 !

Yippee .... good thing I did not pump petrol yet ... today stated in the Star newspaper that the petrol prices had dropped to RM 2.00 !!!!! the link is here. I wonder if it will drop any further.

Anyway it is good for me as I will be driving to Johor and Singapore to meet up with some friends over the weekend. There a couple of friends in Singapore who I have not met face to face but I have I known them for 7 years !!! We all met while playing the online game .. Ragnarok. Now they have migrated to World of Warcraft . ( I am taking a break from WOW for now )

Monday, 17 November 2008

Day 2 Asansol .. part 2 - to the orphanage

Oppss ... this picture was supposed to be posted in the part where we stopped for tea on the way to Asansol .... you can see how "clean" the kitchen is ... ;)
After we have rested for a while after breakfast, we walked over to the orphanage..... consciously staying clear of the cow dung all over the road.
The orphanage is about 10 minutes walk.

An Indian lady hard at work carrying back firewood for cooking
The kids in their classroom



The kids performed a few songs for us ... and all of them are very talented.
Me the photographer for the trip :) and my friend as the camera man

Praying fervently
Managed to hang out with the kids after the performance .... they are so innocent. Most of them are unwanted kids and some are just picked up from the streets so that they can have shelter,food and a place to call home. Makes me thank God and appreciate the fact that I have a family and a place to call home.

Back at work

Finally back at work ..... so many emails to read and so many deadlines to meet but I am happy .... coz the trip was worth it all. At least for now I know what I need to do for these next few months .... study the word of God, watch my diet and exercise so that I can walk around in my shorts in Bali in March 2009.

Ok back to work ;)

Sunday, 16 November 2008

The God Who knows me completely

Psalm 139 (Holman Christian Standard Bible)

Psalm 139

The All-Knowing, Ever-Present God
For the choir director. A Davidic psalm.
1 LORD, You have searched me and known me.

2 You know when I sit down and when I stand up;
You understand my thoughts from far away.

3 You observe my travels and my rest;
You are aware of all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue,
You know all about it, LORD.

5 You have encircled me;
You have placed Your hand on me.

6 [This] extraordinary knowledge is beyond me.
It is lofty; I am unable to [reach] it.

7 Where can I go to escape Your Spirit?
Where can I flee from Your presence?

8 If I go up to heaven, You are there;
if I make my bed in Sheol, You are there.

9 If I live at the eastern horizon
[or] settle at the western limits,

10 even there Your hand will lead me;
Your right hand will hold on to me.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me,
and the light around me will become night" —

12 even the darkness is not dark to You.
The night shines like the day;
darkness and light are alike to You.

13 For it was You who created my inward parts;
You knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I will praise You,
because I have been remarkably and wonderfully made.
Your works are wonderful,
and I know [this] very well.

15 My bones were not hidden from You
when I was made in secret,
when I was formed in the depths of the earth.

16 Your eyes saw me when I was formless;
all [my] days were written in Your book and planned
before a single one of them began.

17 God, how difficult Your thoughts are
for me [to comprehend];
how vast their sum is!

18 If I counted them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand;
when I wake up, I am still with You.

19 God, if only You would kill the wicked -
you bloodthirsty men, stay away from me -

20 who invoke You deceitfully.
Your enemies swear [by You] falsely.

21 LORD, don't I hate those who hate You,
and detest those who rebel against You?

22 I hate them with extreme hatred;
I consider them my enemies.

23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my concerns.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me;
lead me in the everlasting way.



This was my pastor's passage for her sermon today. It never fails to amaze me how God knows me completely ... He knows just the right word, the right person to send into my life. And this passage spoke to me ..... deep down in my heart. I was held by God and He will never let me go.

All I can pray was

Search me

Know me

Tell me

Help me.

Saturday, 15 November 2008

Feeling blue again

Just been back a couple of days and I already miss the people in India. I have made some great friends. I am really not looking forward to work next week. I am not looking forward to lonely dinners and nights by myself in my apartment. I am not looking forward to the jams in KL. Bills to pay ... so much distraction over here .... things are superficial ....... Over there there people had so little but there was contentment and we had each other ..... I was reminded about how to live my life...... I went to India to minister to others and to touch lives, in the end they were the ones who minstered to me and touched my life.

Over here, loneliness is my constant companion..... something which I still struggle with. Maybe someday I will go back again and stay a bit longer if time and finance permits. Until then, I will just have to keep on moving on.

My 2 constant companion

My job during the trip was to shoot photos and I was armed with my good ole Canon EOS 350D fitted with the Tamron f2.8 28-75mm lens and my compact camera, Finepix F100FD.

During meetings, I will usually use my 350D with my flash for indoor pictures. Most of the time when I am in the meetings I will use my finepix f100fd for candid shoots and wide angle shots. I found that it was helpful to have both dslr and compact camera along and because of that I was able to capture a variety of shots. I even managed to take a few pre wedding pictures for my friends who will be getting married next year... as they are also in the team from Malaysia.

Day 2 : Travel to Asansol

After the 2nd team from USA arrived in Kolkata ... it was time to load our luggage on the vehicles and travel to Asansol which was a 5 hours drive.
It was a quiet and dusty and smoky night.... our luggages being loaded on the Tata
Kolkata International Airport ... Adious till I see u again on Nov 13th
Driving on the highway .... very very dusty and bumpy.... and sometimes we get cows and dogs and people crossing the road... and I have even seen a vehicle on the same line in the opposite direction !!!!
Can u imagine this happened on the highway ????? Apparently the truck wanted to go to the other side of the road ... and it caused a major jam.
Time for a short break of masala tea before we continue the ride to Asansol. Yummy tea but I dont want to know how they made it :)
Uncle busy sleeping in his little hut .... business open for 24 hours
Finally arrived in Asansol at about 6 am ... and was greeted with warm welcomes and FOOD !!!! I was famished
Scrambled eggs with chapati ... a nice combination ... and I goppled it all down.

Time for a short nap before we head over to the orphanage.

Friday, 14 November 2008

Day 1 : the day I took a flight to Kolkata

Nov 3rd Monday ... was the day I took a flight to Kolkata, India. It has been 8 years since I left in 2000 after I have completed my medical degree and internship in Manipal, India. It was nostalgia as I will flying back to the country was my home for 8 years when I was studying there ( pre uni and med school and internship ).

We all met at Pastor's house and one of the church mates drove us to KLIA in the church van. We decided to have a good meal of Burger Kings before we are stuck with chapatis, nans and parothas for nearly 2 weeks.

There were 5 of us in the team.
Catching the train to the terminal where we will be catching the flight to Singapore and then transit to Kolkata. We managed to get a good deal and flew on SIA. KLIA was quiet that day.

Lots of empty seats in the waiting place before we boarded the plane.
Landed in Singapore and lining up for the transit flight to Kolkata.
Yippee I get the chose what I wanna eat.
I decided to have the lamb stew.

The flight took about 4 hours and it was about midnight in Kolkata when we landed. We had to wait for the another team to arrive from USA at 1 am before we drove to Asansol, West Bengal.
Zonked out from the trip but still cant sleep yet.
More later when I get the pictures sorted out.

Cheers

Thursday, 13 November 2008

The Himalaya Mountains

It is great to be back.... slept like a log after lunch with my church mates (they picked us up from the airport ). I only woke up at about 745 pm. I did not know that I was so zonked out from the trip.

I will post up more pictures when I get them sorted out :)

Just landed in

Just landed in Singapore and I am waiting to board my connecting flight which is at 835am. I should be in KLIA by 930 am ... and be back in Seremban by noon. Thank God for a safe flight...will post more later ... esp the pictures after I have taken a rest.

Cheers

Monday, 10 November 2008

Greetings from Asansol, West Bengal

Greetings from Asansol, West Bengal. I am nearing the end of my trip to India. I will be spending a day in Asansol and I will be making a trip to Kolkata on Wednesday to catch my flight back to Malaysia ... I will be flying Singapore Airlines.

So much to share when I am back in Malaysia and I had taken a lot of pictures and I think more than a thousand pictures. A lot of pictures of the breathtaking views of Darjeeling and the Himalaya Mountains. I survived the cold temperature and the nerve raking and dangerous ride back from Darjeeling to Asansol. I survived tyre punctures, engine breakdown and near accidents. I had no access to toilets and I had to do my " stuffs " in the open. Ate things which I dont even know the names. But most of all I can see God moving in this part of the world which I thought was forgetten but God knows and remembers His people. I have made a lot of new friends and a few where we just clicked and I am sure will remain great friends for life.

Godwilling, I hope to visit this part of India again.

Take care and God bless

Monday, 3 November 2008

Hello from Singapore

Hi I have landed in Singapore and am now waiting to board the plane to Kolkata, Calcutta which will be departing at 9 pm Singapore time. A lot of traveling to do when I reach India. I am very excited about this trip and what God will do.

Over and out :)

India here I come

Today is the day I will be flying to India with a team from my church. I will be in India from Nov 3rd till Nov 14th. Do keep me in prayer. This is something which I had wanted to do for a long time since my church started to minister in India.

I have not been feeling well ... fever,bodyache and headache.....but I am popping in panadol .. hopefully it will tide me over this period.

I might not be updating my blog unless I can get internet connection. So take care guys and see you all in 2 weeks

Saturday, 1 November 2008

Lunch at Dragon I, The Curve

After the breakfast at Dim Sum place on Saturday with my friends .... I met up with 2 more friends for lunch. I went to pick her from her condo at Damansara and we decided to have lunch at Dragon I at the Curve. I was able to find a parking place ... usually I will have to go round and round to look for a parking place on the weekends ... hence the reason why I prefer to stay home on weekends ... unless I am going to Summit USJ, Subang Parade or Carrefour where parking is not a problem.
Long beans with minced meat
Pork ribs again !!!! Yummy coz no bones :)

I love this steamed peanuts