Monday, 30 July 2007
To tell you the truth ... I am really getting tired .... sick of reading the same stuffs again and again and yet still forgetting. Anyway just one more last time..... one more time.
Sunday, 29 July 2007
I was able to study ..... tried to cover respiratory physiology. I have read it many times ... but then still prone to forget. Well I will keep going on and hope for the best.
Just gotta keep going on ......
Saturday, 28 July 2007
All the other items on the menu were either fried or too cold so I settled for baked meatballs which is my one of my favorite dishes.
TZ in action :)
The three musketeers
All Hail Sweden .....
It was fun meeting Musa and TZ ... at least I have made some new friends.... people who I can just chill out and hang out with. It is not easy with my work schedule to hang out all the time or to make new friends and with exams drawing closer ... I will be keeping to myself again for the final race to decide whether I drop out or move on. Still it was a breath of fresh air for me....to hang out with people who I dont have to discuss about my job or exams and just talk about simple things in life ..... but the truth is ... this exams had been haunting me since I started my masters. So far I found out that the only thing which can really make me depress are my studies ... always feel I am not doing enough. The voices from within and without ...keeps condemning .... accusing .... and takes alot of energy just to remain motivated and unaffected ... it is a bitter pill to swallow but still I will not have it any other way .... for I have been chastened... I have been broken and made stronger by His loving Hands. A God who wepts with me when I hurt but loves me too much to let me remain this way... therefore I will continue to trust His heart ... come what may .. for it is only by His grace alone.... and He alone knows. Thank You God for life .... to be able to wake up in the morning and experience Your goodness and mercy. Thank you for giving me another day.
Wednesday, 25 July 2007
It also glows in the dark ... so jimbo u can also use it at night ...shhh shhhh
It also comes with cute like alphabets so that jimbo can learn his spelling .... hehe
Well bro ... will pass it to u when I see you :)
Thanks for all the well wishes .... now I must rest rest rest .....
This morning conversation with my sister
Me : Any clinics to recommend ?
Sis : Erm
Me : I think I need to get MC .... how to do it ah ?
Sis : Hey you the doctor .... you dont know meh ?
Me : Erm I have never taken MC before ..
Sis : Go see private clinic loh ....
I think I can count the number of times I have taken MC since I started work. Erm I think I took MC only once and that was ages ago. I still go to work if I can climb out of bed and just pop in medicine to get me through the day. But this time I must get well before my trip. And I must be in full gear for my studies when I get back.
So here goes my hunt for a clinic to get my MC ( eve, fibrate, or jimbo can give me MC ah ? hehe )....finally..... hmmmm might change my mind and go to work though.
Tuesday, 24 July 2007
Not to mention the back of mind ... I need to study .. exams are just 3 months away. I am still sick and I have tutorials coming up this week. But as long as I know myself and I have tried my best.
My letter of appeal to sit for my primary exams one last time ( for those who dont know... I am actually studying for my masters ) will be discussed in the meeting with the department and the university this Friday. So do pray along with me and that God's will alone be done. In the meantime I will do what is humanly possible. Thanks alot.
Now I hope I get well before I fly off to Siem Reap next week. Really been looking forward to the trip.... after that I am locking myself up with my books, that is if the appeal gets approved.
Sunday, 22 July 2007
Well I guess I am finally started on some strong anti-biotics .. thanks to jimbo as I have been coughing like crazy and the sputum had turn dark green .... yucks !!! And I have still been having fever on and off. I need to get well before I fly off to Siem Reap in August.
Thanks jimbo ..... hope the anti biotics kick in fast as I am on call tomorrow
I wanted to take the pictures without using the flash so that I will not distract people from worship God during the service. So I tried to blend in.... I was sitting on the floor, standing on chairs, kneeling down ...anything to get the perfect shot.
Just wanted to share some shots ... the place I call my home church ... a place where I belong to... and ever ready to serve.
Praise and Worship in progress
Taken during the sermon
Well nearly time for me to get ready to go back to KL ..... I am still praying that I will be able to find a church where I can belong to and serve God .... Who alone is worthy to be adored and worshipped ... Amen
Friday, 20 July 2007
This is my number while waiting for my food to arrive
Yummy Chicken Porridge :)
Uncle Lim's is usually quite packed
My ipaq RW6828 keeping me company ... though the video playback was a bit jerky as I was streaming the sound to my bluetooth stereo headset :)
Tomorrow morning I plan to go to the gym before I head back to Seremban. Sis will be driving as she needs to service the car. I am only bringing 2 books back to read .... :)
Hope to get well soon
Anyway ... thank God the company today was good. We talked and laughed....shared knowledge and time just flies ... before I knew it we were done with the 2nd case. I left the hospital at about 7 pm.
I brought my camera to the hospital to try out the close up Hoya lens +4 which I bought recently as I cant afford to buy a Macro lens at the moment...so the close up lens will have to do for now till I can save up.
The anaesthetic machine
Some of the drugs used..... this is a muscle relaxant named Rocuronium
The laryngoscope ...used to faciliate intubation of a patient.
Thursday, 19 July 2007
Have not been feeling too well since I did my call in ICU last Monday maybe I got infected by some super bug from ICU. Been having fever, headache, bodyache, loss of appetite ( ... hmmm not too bad ... yippee can lost weight ! ) ... I have been popping in panadol like no body's business. Hope I get well soon ..... next Monday I will be on call again in ICU.
Wednesday, 18 July 2007
Sunday, 15 July 2007
Here I am humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb
Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty
Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire
Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice
This song was sung this morning at the church I attended. The part that really hit me was the chorus .... "Your grace has found me just as I am, empty handed, BUT alive in Your hands"
I was reminded that I did not love Him first but He first loved me ... He came to woo me ... to captivate my heart ..... my broken life .... the weaknesses and emptiness ... He wanted it all ... all of me. Yes His grace found me ... He knew that there was nothing I could offer Him ... I was empty handed with nothing to offer except my broken life. When I decrease and Christ increases in Him ... that is when I become truly alive in Him.
It never cease to amaze me that God will choose such fragile vessels like humans to bear His love and trademark. We are so fickle minded, prone to forget, we each have own agenda .... I have lost count how many times I have hurt Him and went my own way ... but yet His love draws me back because He knows that I am only truly alive when my life is in His hands. What a wonderful God. That the God of the universe would choose me. The object of His love and attention.
Thank You God. You will never cease to amaze me. I am truly Yours and Yours alone. I am hopelessly in love with You and I will die the very moment when I am separated from You. Amen
After church I decided to check out Mydin which is nearby to get some pens and CD organizer to organize my CDs. I did spring cleaning of my bed room so that it will be conducive to study at home. Previously I had a lot of tall shelves in my room to keep all my books. But it made the room feel so congested ..... sometimes I feel that I have no room to breath or even to stretch out. Now I feel more refreshed in my room. More room to stretch out and do some Callanetics to tone up.
While walking around in Mydin, I received a phone call from TZ ... a new friend I made recently who is really a fitness buff and we decided to meet up for lunch at Pizza Uno. It was great to finally meet up and have a meal together.
Deep Fried Mushrooms
Calamari Salad ... yummy ... first time I tried it
Aglio Olio ... spagetti with olive oil and spices and garlic.
TZ was telling me ways to get myself back on track to reclaiming my health. Anyway I asked to be accountable to him as I am super lazy in going to gym. At least there is someone who I need to answer to. Moreover.... must lost weight before my sister's wedding as I will be keeping my eyes wide open for .......... well when the time is right ... I will find her someday :)
Well it was a wonderful Sunday. Gonna sweat it out, have my bath and hit the books.
Wednesday, 11 July 2007
So today I watched this movie together with my sister and her fiance. It is the 5th movie. The kids are all grown up now. Prior to watching the 5th Harry Porter movie .. I have watched through the 1st to the 4th movie ... it is amazing to see their transition from kids to now teenagers.
The movie is now "darker" ... no more the " aw so cute" kinda feeling that I get. From beginning to the end there was a sense of impending danger lurking just around the corner. Yes Harry Porter finally has his first wet long kiss on screen with his love interest, Cho Chang.
It is still a battle between good and evil and there were casualties from both sides. Anyway I wont spill anymore beans .... now I am eagerly waiting for the 6th movie.
After the movie, we were hungry and decided to have supper at "Fatman Steamboat" which I call lok lok. Basically there are raw fish, meat or prawn balls, vegetables, etc which we dip into a pot of boiling soup to cook it and then dip it into sweet sause, spicy peanut sauce or chilli sauce. It is my all time favorite.
Yummy .... :)
Ok good night guys ... gonna hit the sack before I fall off my chair :)
Monday, 9 July 2007
I was back home last weekend and I managed to worship God in my home church. It was really refreshing. I attended the second service as my church has 2 services ... one at 800 am and the other one at 1030 am. Kok Hon led the worship and God was really moving in the midst of the church as we worshiped Him in unison. New songs broke forth. There were words of wisdom as people came forth to share what God had laid in their hearts. Loving Him for Who He is .... adoring Him because He alone is worthy.... not expecting anything in return but just to touch His heart... to love Him.
In the midst of it all as I knelt down before Him .... He spoke to my heart .... the still small voice in the midst of all the singing.... I am His and He is mine. I was captivated by God the One who had won my heart years ago and still continues to woo me with His tender unconditional love. The One Who sees me for who I really am .... the real "me".
"Come to Me and I will give you rest. Nothing else in this world can ever give you the rest you so desires. Everything is temporary but Me alone remain the same always. Things .... trips..... spas..... people..... money..... status.....will never satisfy you or give you the rest that I ALONE can provide. So come to Me ..... I will give you rest. Stop struggling. Stop fighting. Stop facing things in your own strength. Face them in My strength alone... My child ... oh how I love you and long to give you rest."
And that moment .... the tears will not stop flowing as His presence washed over and filled me to the overflowing. Chains were broken. Mental bondages were broken. Scales which blinded me fell off. Suddenly I realized again that I am His and He is mine. And I will rest in Him.
Saturday, 7 July 2007
I am really looking forward to taking pictures. And also to recharge myself before I look myself till Nov for my exams. ( that is if my appeal gets through end of this month ... so please keep this matter in prayer ).
So do give me any suggestions ... where to eat ? What to look for ? Where to take pictures ? Where to stay ? What are cheap ? The food ? Thanks alot :D
All set and ready for action .... one of the guides ...
Me !!! all ready for more snorkeling and calories burning session.
My guide with the float sausage .... or cylinder .... oh well dont know what it is called. His flippers keep getting in the way ... He brought us out into the sea far away from the boat so that we can see corals which were alive and vibrant ...
Erm ...... no comments :D
On the way back and a picture with the guide ... a young chap who is from KL but works in Redang.
And later after dinner .... I was so zonked out that after the evening walk with my new found friends I collapsed into a blissful sleep dreaming about swimming among fishes ..... ah ... pure bliss .... ( not to mention the snoring orchestra which began at night ) ;)