Monday, 30 July 2007

Thanks for praying .... appeal got thru

Just wanna thank you all for the prayers, encouragement and support.... found out today that my appeal to re sit for the exams in November 2007 came through. Already started hogging the library. Hopefully this time I will get through and continue to be in high positive spirit to go "ALL" out for the final time for my primary exams.

To tell you the truth ... I am really getting tired .... sick of reading the same stuffs again and again and yet still forgetting. Anyway just one more last time..... one more time.

Thanks :)

Sunday, 29 July 2007

Breakfast at Burger King

Attended a church which had a morning service at 730 am to 930am. After church I decided to have breakfast at Burger King ..... to get some studying done knowing that if I go straight home ... there will be tons of distraction. I ordered Croisant Egg with Chicken ... I love the part where I can have endless top ups of coffee or soft drinks... I decided to have coffee ... I tried out the white coffee and the capuccino vanila coffee - yummy !
I was able to study ..... tried to cover respiratory physiology. I have read it many times ... but then still prone to forget. Well I will keep going on and hope for the best.
Just gotta keep going on ......

Saturday, 28 July 2007

Dinner with Musa and TZ

Felt much better to go for dinner .... could not think of anywhere to go to so we decided to meet up at Ikea for dinner knowing that the other shopping complexes will be jam packed on a weekend. I managed to get there in 30 minutes via Elite Highway... very convenient. This was the first time I was meeting Musa. I had lunch with TZ before at Pizza Uno.

All the other items on the menu were either fried or too cold so I settled for baked meatballs which is my one of my favorite dishes.
Meat balls
TZ in action :)
The three musketeers
All Hail Sweden .....

It was fun meeting Musa and TZ ... at least I have made some new friends.... people who I can just chill out and hang out with. It is not easy with my work schedule to hang out all the time or to make new friends and with exams drawing closer ... I will be keeping to myself again for the final race to decide whether I drop out or move on. Still it was a breath of fresh air for hang out with people who I dont have to discuss about my job or exams and just talk about simple things in life ..... but the truth is ... this exams had been haunting me since I started my masters. So far I found out that the only thing which can really make me depress are my studies ... always feel I am not doing enough. The voices from within and without ...keeps condemning .... accusing .... and takes alot of energy just to remain motivated and unaffected ... it is a bitter pill to swallow but still I will not have it any other way .... for I have been chastened... I have been broken and made stronger by His loving Hands. A God who wepts with me when I hurt but loves me too much to let me remain this way... therefore I will continue to trust His heart ... come what may .. for it is only by His grace alone.... and He alone knows. Thank You God for life .... to be able to wake up in the morning and experience Your goodness and mercy. Thank you for giving me another day.

Phew finally cleaned up my room

Spend the whole of yesterday cleaning up my room. I bought a huge shelf to get all my books in the store room.... so that I will have more space in my room..... now the room is brighter,less cluttered and I love just sitting in the room to study or surf the net or watch a movie. I hook up my macbook or my mp3 to the Samsung Hifi set.

Wednesday, 25 July 2007

New clothes for my baby

Got new clothes for my baby. Bought the Krussel Leather Casing for my Ipaq RW6828. Krussel leather cases are high quality and they last. I have tried other brands but still go back to Krussel products. Light source was my table study lamp and the background was a black card board.

New Chi Chai wrist gel rest for Jimbo

I heard that jimbo's hippo wrist gel rest ... erm haemorrhage .... u can read all about it here. As I was out in town to get some stuffs ... I decided to get a new wrist rest for jimbo .... I could not find the hippo... all the shop had was doremon, hello kitty, spiderman, garfield and chi chai (piglet). After giving jimbo a call ... deicded to go ahead to get the chi chai wrist gel rest.
It also glows in the dark ... so jimbo u can also use it at night ...shhh shhhh
It also comes with cute like alphabets so that jimbo can learn his spelling .... hehe

Well bro ... will pass it to u when I see you :)

Calm before the storm

Took this picture just before it rained .... calm before a storm.

Update : finally on MC for 2 days..... rest rest rest

Finally got myself 2 days MC. Thanks to the doctor who saw me who happens to be one of my juniors at Med School... what a small world.

Thanks for all the well wishes .... now I must rest rest rest .....

MC finally ?

Think I am finally gonna get at least MC for the next 2 days. Been coughing and coughing and on top of it .... I started having running nose. Seem to be getting worst. Hope to get well before my trip.

This morning conversation with my sister

Me : Any clinics to recommend ?

Sis : Erm

Me : I think I need to get MC .... how to do it ah ?

Sis : Hey you the doctor .... you dont know meh ?

Me : Erm I have never taken MC before ..

Sis : Go see private clinic loh ....

I think I can count the number of times I have taken MC since I started work. Erm I think I took MC only once and that was ages ago. I still go to work if I can climb out of bed and just pop in medicine to get me through the day. But this time I must get well before my trip. And I must be in full gear for my studies when I get back.

So here goes my hunt for a clinic to get my MC ( eve, fibrate, or jimbo can give me MC ah ? hehe )....finally..... hmmmm might change my mind and go to work though.

Tuesday, 24 July 2007

Still the jonah and still sick .... maybe worst

I just got up. I only slept about a hour and a half. I was hoping that my call yesterday would not be so busy .... was coughing away .... hope I did not infect any of my patients or my colleagues. Some of my patients' condition were so unstable that I practically had to be sitting by the bed ... trying to crack my head what to do ... of course I realized that I should have taken leave to rest as I feel that I was doing more harm to my body ...but I wanted to get the "on call" done with as it was not very easy to get the dates changed and I did not want to cause any hassle to anyone. The back of my mind ... I was thinking .... I am still the jonah and Murphy's law (if anything can go wrong, it will) seriously applies to me whenever I am on call... not that it was my wrong doing but I seem to be getting the worst and the sick-est patient ever one can imagine. I guess I learned to accept it years ago since I started work.

Not to mention the back of mind ... I need to study .. exams are just 3 months away. I am still sick and I have tutorials coming up this week. But as long as I know myself and I have tried my best.

My letter of appeal to sit for my primary exams one last time ( for those who dont know... I am actually studying for my masters ) will be discussed in the meeting with the department and the university this Friday. So do pray along with me and that God's will alone be done. In the meantime I will do what is humanly possible. Thanks alot.

Now I hope I get well before I fly off to Siem Reap next week. Really been looking forward to the trip.... after that I am locking myself up with my books, that is if the appeal gets approved.

Sunday, 22 July 2007

Pills pills pills !!!!!!

Well I guess I am finally started on some strong anti-biotics .. thanks to jimbo as I have been coughing like crazy and the sputum had turn dark green .... yucks !!! And I have still been having fever on and off. I need to get well before I fly off to Siem Reap in August.

Thanks jimbo ..... hope the anti biotics kick in fast as I am on call tomorrow

My home church .... a place to belong

I always look forward to going back to my home church in Seremban. Today I had an assignment and it was to take pictures during the service of the pastors, full time workers, the congregation and the service ... what goes on and capture "the moment" as they wanted photos to be used for the church announcement slides etc. I attended both services to capture the photos. We have 2 services at 8 am and 1030 am.

I wanted to take the pictures without using the flash so that I will not distract people from worship God during the service. So I tried to blend in.... I was sitting on the floor, standing on chairs, kneeling down ...anything to get the perfect shot.

Just wanted to share some shots ... the place I call my home church ... a place where I belong to... and ever ready to serve.

Praise and Worship in progress
Offering bags
Taken during the sermon
Sound equipment
The keyboardist

Well nearly time for me to get ready to go back to KL ..... I am still praying that I will be able to find a church where I can belong to and serve God .... Who alone is worthy to be adored and worshipped ... Amen

Friday, 20 July 2007

Dinner at Uncle Lim's

My appetitie is not that great so I decided to get some porridge for dinner. So after leaving the hospital, I took a drive to Subang Parade to have dinner at Uncle Lim's. I love the chicken porridge.
This is my number while waiting for my food to arrive
Yummy Chicken Porridge :)
Uncle Lim's is usually quite packed

My ipaq RW6828 keeping me company ... though the video playback was a bit jerky as I was streaming the sound to my bluetooth stereo headset :)

Tomorrow morning I plan to go to the gym before I head back to Seremban. Sis will be driving as she needs to service the car. I am only bringing 2 books back to read .... :)

Hope to get well soon

At work

I was on afternoon shift today. Had to drag myself to work ... been coughing and I still feel really weak. I was hoping that the list will finish early but when I arrived at work .... the first case was still going on.... and the next case will take another estimated 5 hours ! Pengsan

Anyway ... thank God the company today was good. We talked and laughed....shared knowledge and time just flies ... before I knew it we were done with the 2nd case. I left the hospital at about 7 pm.

I brought my camera to the hospital to try out the close up Hoya lens +4 which I bought recently as I cant afford to buy a Macro lens at the the close up lens will have to do for now till I can save up.

The anaesthetic machine
Some of the drugs used..... this is a muscle relaxant named Rocuronium

The laryngoscope ...used to faciliate intubation of a patient.

Thursday, 19 July 2007

Been under the weather

Dinner : vegetable chicken soup.

Have not been feeling too well since I did my call in ICU last Monday maybe I got infected by some super bug from ICU. Been having fever, headache, bodyache, loss of appetite ( ... hmmm not too bad ... yippee can lost weight ! ) ... I have been popping in panadol like no body's business. Hope I get well soon ..... next Monday I will be on call again in ICU.

Wednesday, 18 July 2007

How does one ??

How long can one go against a wall before one loses stamina ? How does one regain the confidence lost ? How does one go against the flow ? How does one keep going on inspite of lost dreams and hopes ?

Sunday, 15 July 2007

Majesty ( Here I Am ) by Delirious

Majesty (Here I Am)

Here I am humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty
Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

This song was sung this morning at the church I attended. The part that really hit me was the chorus .... "Your grace has found me just as I am, empty handed, BUT alive in Your hands"
I was reminded that I did not love Him first but He first loved me ... He came to woo me ... to captivate my heart ..... my broken life .... the weaknesses and emptiness ... He wanted it all ... all of me. Yes His grace found me ... He knew that there was nothing I could offer Him ... I was empty handed with nothing to offer except my broken life. When I decrease and Christ increases in Him ... that is when I become truly alive in Him.

It never cease to amaze me that God will choose such fragile vessels like humans to bear His love and trademark. We are so fickle minded, prone to forget, we each have own agenda .... I have lost count how many times I have hurt Him and went my own way ... but yet His love draws me back because He knows that I am only truly alive when my life is in His hands. What a wonderful God. That the God of the universe would choose me. The object of His love and attention.

Thank You God. You will never cease to amaze me. I am truly Yours and Yours alone. I am hopelessly in love with You and I will die the very moment when I am separated from You. Amen

A wonderful Sunday

Today .. I got up at about 630 am .... to attend a church in USJ where the 1st morning service is at 730-930 am and the 2nd service was at 11 am to 1pm. It was great to be able worship God corporately. I will still try out the other churches which had been recommended by my home church pastors.

After church I decided to check out Mydin which is nearby to get some pens and CD organizer to organize my CDs. I did spring cleaning of my bed room so that it will be conducive to study at home. Previously I had a lot of tall shelves in my room to keep all my books. But it made the room feel so congested ..... sometimes I feel that I have no room to breath or even to stretch out. Now I feel more refreshed in my room. More room to stretch out and do some Callanetics to tone up.

While walking around in Mydin, I received a phone call from TZ ... a new friend I made recently who is really a fitness buff and we decided to meet up for lunch at Pizza Uno. It was great to finally meet up and have a meal together.
Karen's Potato

Deep Fried Mushrooms
Calamari Salad ... yummy ... first time I tried it
Aglio Olio ... spagetti with olive oil and spices and garlic.

TZ was telling me ways to get myself back on track to reclaiming my health. Anyway I asked to be accountable to him as I am super lazy in going to gym. At least there is someone who I need to answer to. Moreover.... must lost weight before my sister's wedding as I will be keeping my eyes wide open for .......... well when the time is right ... I will find her someday :)

Well it was a wonderful Sunday. Gonna sweat it out, have my bath and hit the books.

Wednesday, 11 July 2007

Harry Porter and Lok Lok

Finally I think I have completed all the "must watch" movies for this year ... I have watched Spiderman 3, Fantastic Four and the Silver Surfer, Transformers and Die Hard 4.0.

So today I watched this movie together with my sister and her fiance. It is the 5th movie. The kids are all grown up now. Prior to watching the 5th Harry Porter movie .. I have watched through the 1st to the 4th movie ... it is amazing to see their transition from kids to now teenagers.

The movie is now "darker" ... no more the " aw so cute" kinda feeling that I get. From beginning to the end there was a sense of impending danger lurking just around the corner. Yes Harry Porter finally has his first wet long kiss on screen with his love interest, Cho Chang.

It is still a battle between good and evil and there were casualties from both sides. Anyway I wont spill anymore beans .... now I am eagerly waiting for the 6th movie.
After the movie, we were hungry and decided to have supper at "Fatman Steamboat" which I call lok lok. Basically there are raw fish, meat or prawn balls, vegetables, etc which we dip into a pot of boiling soup to cook it and then dip it into sweet sause, spicy peanut sauce or chilli sauce. It is my all time favorite.

Yummy .... :)
Ok good night guys ... gonna hit the sack before I fall off my chair :)

Monday, 9 July 2007

Come to Me and I will give you rest .. Matthew 11:28-30

28 "Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 All of you, take up My yoke and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for yourselves. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."

Matthew 11:28-30 Holman Christian Standard Bible

I was back home last weekend and I managed to worship God in my home church. It was really refreshing. I attended the second service as my church has 2 services ... one at 800 am and the other one at 1030 am. Kok Hon led the worship and God was really moving in the midst of the church as we worshiped Him in unison. New songs broke forth. There were words of wisdom as people came forth to share what God had laid in their hearts. Loving Him for Who He is .... adoring Him because He alone is worthy.... not expecting anything in return but just to touch His heart... to love Him.

In the midst of it all as I knelt down before Him .... He spoke to my heart .... the still small voice in the midst of all the singing.... I am His and He is mine. I was captivated by God the One who had won my heart years ago and still continues to woo me with His tender unconditional love. The One Who sees me for who I really am .... the real "me".

"Come to Me and I will give you rest. Nothing else in this world can ever give you the rest you so desires. Everything is temporary but Me alone remain the same always. Things .... trips..... spas..... people..... money..... status.....will never satisfy you or give you the rest that I ALONE can provide. So come to Me ..... I will give you rest. Stop struggling. Stop fighting. Stop facing things in your own strength. Face them in My strength alone... My child ... oh how I love you and long to give you rest."

And that moment .... the tears will not stop flowing as His presence washed over and filled me to the overflowing. Chains were broken. Mental bondages were broken. Scales which blinded me fell off. Suddenly I realized again that I am His and He is mine. And I will rest in Him.

Saturday, 7 July 2007

Siem Reap here I come in August !!!!!

I will be going to Siem Reap in August with ... amazonman ... one of the bloggers who had become a dear friend. Anyone had been to Siem Reap before ? Any suggestions for budget affordable hotels to stay in Siem Reap ? Any suggestions will be great.

I am really looking forward to taking pictures. And also to recharge myself before I look myself till Nov for my exams. ( that is if my appeal gets through end of this month ... so please keep this matter in prayer ).

So do give me any suggestions ... where to eat ? What to look for ? Where to take pictures ? Where to stay ? What are cheap ? The food ? Thanks alot :D

Redang : Snorkeling Part 2 !

After my lunch took a short and I was up and ready for the afternoon snorkeling session. It was gonna be a boat ride to Pulau Batu Besar ( Hope I got the name correctly ) While waiting for the boat I saw the monkey making itself comfortable on my friend's lap .... and it seems he bites .... dangerous !!!!!
All set and ready for action .... one of the guides ...

Me !!! all ready for more snorkeling and calories burning session.
My guide with the float sausage .... or cylinder .... oh well dont know what it is called. His flippers keep getting in the way ... He brought us out into the sea far away from the boat so that we can see corals which were alive and vibrant ...
Erm ...... no comments :D
On the way back and a picture with the guide ... a young chap who is from KL but works in Redang.

And later after dinner .... I was so zonked out that after the evening walk with my new found friends I collapsed into a blissful sleep dreaming about swimming among fishes ..... ah ... pure bliss .... ( not to mention the snoring orchestra which began at night ) ;)