Friday, 29 June 2007

A prayer request ...

Life is back to the daily routine of going to work, dragging myself to library, doing 24 hours on calls, etc. This is my final attempt if the appeal gets through. The meeting will be end of this month and I will know if I will continue this path or another path. But for now I am preparing for the exams in November.

I was doing some spring cleaning of my room to get it ready so that I can study at home. Got rid of lots of junk.... ( it is amazing the things one can accumulate over time ) .. now my room feel more spacious, there is room to breath, to stretch out, to pray ....

At the back of my mind while I was talking to friends and planning out how to approach my upcoming exams in November ... one tiny voice kept nudging me ... "Put God first above all else and everything else will fall into place". There are times I will be looking inside to my own strengths and weaknesses and I will look at the mountain and cringe back in fear .... thinking that I can't do it. The mountain ahead look so overwhelming, so intimidating ... look so impossible. The past failures and experiences also confirm what I feel ..... but then the still small voice tell me to "Put God first, seek Him first above all else. Behold I am doing a new thing. Lean not on your understanding or past experiences. I am the Almighty God and you can do ALL things through ME. If only you will believe with your whole heart, mind and strength and not look to the right and left, and not waver. Though you might be tossed around by the waves around you, fix your eyes on Me and you will be anchored and safe in Me no matter what come your way."

So I have decided that I will do just that .... put Him first above all else.

First of all ... I need to find a church to settle in. I still have not found a church to call home over here in KL. Whenever I am free, I will drive back to Seremban to attend my home church ... (I have been there since 1988 when I accepted Christ into my heart). I want to find a church where I can call home, a place where I can belong to, a place where I can worship and serve Him, a place to love and be loved and fellowship. So if you guys know of any churches around USJ or Subang Jaya or Puchong ... do give me a buzz and I can drop by and visit your church and see where the Lord leads me. Yup that is the first thing I must settle.

So do pray along with me..... thanks for dropping by and the support over the years.

Thursday, 28 June 2007

Yippee .... Watching Transformers today !!!!!

Yippe will be watching Transformers today .... managed to buy tickets for the 630 pm show at the THX Theatre. Really looking forward to this movie .... will be watching with my sis and her fiance.

Have been doing spring cleaning these few days .... to prepare my room for studying again and also to do some exercises in the room in the mornings before I go to work. Been going to the gym again and it feels great.

Ok have a great day

Tuesday, 26 June 2007

Sometimes is hard .....

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths Proverbs 3:5,6 (Amplified Bible)

Sometimes it is hard .... yes sometimes it is hard to fight the emotions that overwhelm and the thoughts that go through my mind ..... when the circumstances around me invoke past hurts and memories which used to bind me. When the weight of the world come crashing down on me, when I start comparing myself with others and what I am missing out on ..... I force myself to fix my eyes on Him again in order to maintain my sanity.... in order to move on with life.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference. Amen

Sunday, 24 June 2007

Redang Day 2 - Sunrise

The first day of Redang ... I was basically zonked out. So after dinner I slept quite early so that I will be fresh for the rest of my stay in Redang. I also wanted to get up early so that I can take pictures of the sunrise. I just need to just walk out of the resort for the glorious sight. I got up at about 530 am in the morning .... got ready....sneaked out quietly so that I wont wake up anyone and walked to the beach and waited for the sunrise. It was my first time taking pictures of the sunrise. It was worth it getting up early. My heart was just crying out to God and worshiping and praising Him for His glorious creation. Just wanted to share a few pictures which I had taken in no particular order.

Life starts early in Redang .... already got people getting ready to go canoeing

Friday, 22 June 2007

Day 1 Redang ( Part 3 - People )

After we checked into the rooms.... the rest of them went for their dives. There were boat trips to different sites for snorkeling provided by the resort. I was staying at Pelangi Resort Redang. Not too bad and there was an air con in the room. So I decided to take a nap before I do anything as I only slept about 2 hours and I was walking around like a zombie. But little did I know that I wont be getting much sleep either as Redang was crowded with people and there screams and shouts while they were playing football, volleyball, etc. But thank God a short nap was better than nothing. When one of the guys came back, we decided to take a walk along the beach. I brought my Canon 350 D along initally to capture some landscape but in the end I used my zoom lens 75-300mm canon lens to capture pictures of people and here are a few of the pictures :D

I really like this picture of this couple just enjoying each other's company. I hope that someday I can also share this special moment with someone special.
My newfound friend walking ahead of me
I try include some human elements in my photos :D

I wanted the try the parachute sailing thingy at first but I was wondering if I was too ..erm ... heavy to even go up in the air
This picture was taken as the lady in green thought I was a photographer or journalist from a chinese newspaper as I was walking around with my Canon 350D with the zoom lens.... so she asked me to take a picture of them burying someone with sand. Oppss forgot the get the email add or contact number from the girl in blue :D
Wow some people really come to Redang for a sun tan. I was covering myself with sunblock :D

Ok gonna hit the sack now ... I am on call tomorrow ... more when I am back and lucid ..hehe

Good night :D

Day 1 Redang (Part 2)

The boat ride was packed with people and the sight that welcomed us was AWESOME !!! I stopped and praised God for His creation on the spot. Blue skies, clear blue sea water where you can see right to the bottom, soft white sand...... I can go on and on :D

I have sat down and read my books while just enjoying the glorious sight

Day 1 Redang (Part 1)

Day 1 .... Got up at 4 am to catch a bus to LCCT. The bus left at 445 am and I arrived at LCCT at about 530 am. The bus was super fast and the fare was only 9 ringgit ... very convenient. At least my sister did not have to drive me all the way to LCCT KLIA. I only slept for about 2 hours..... was super excited about this trip. Had not gone anywhere in ages. I am looking forward to recharging.

I checked in together with my friend and decided to have breakfast at Coffeebean as the other places were packed with people. I was really surprised to see so many people at LCCT so early in the morning.

I had bluberry muffin and coffee and it was yummy
The flight to Terengganu took about 1 hour and still trying to catch some sleep....
People waiting for their luggage
On the boat to Redang
Found a Star Trek Fan onboard the boat ..... :D

Here is one for Kok Hon

Ok Kok Hon one picture for you .... the rest will follow after my gym session at 7 pm .... oppss I am already late.....

What if - Nicole Nordeman... a song for a friend

WHAT IF - Nicole Nordeman

What if you're right?
And he was just another nice guy
What if you're right?
What if it's true?
They say the cross will
only make a fool of you
And what if it's true?

What if he takes his palace in history
With all the prophets and the kings
Who taught us love and came in peace
But then the story ends
What then?

But what if you're wrong?
What if there's more?
What if there's hope you
never dreamed of hoping for?
What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you,
catch you by surprise?
What if He's more than enough?
What if it's love?

What if you dig,
What if you dig
Way down deeper
than your simple-minded friends
What if you dig?
What if you find
A thousand more unanswered questions
inside That's all you find

What if you pick apart the logic
And begin to poke the holes
What if the crown of thorns is no more
Then folklore that must be told and retold

You've been running as fast as you can
You've been looking for a place you can land so long
But what if you're wrong?

What if you jump?
And just close your eyes?
What if the arms that catch you,
catch you by surprise?
What if He's more than enough?
What if it's love?

A song for a dear friend ...... who I chatted with last night. He is struggling with alot of things. Holding on so tight to things which he knows he must let go. Not finding the peace which he so desperately needs. He evens doubts whether he is a Christian or not. What if you let go and let God take over ? What if you surrender and abandon yourself to God in order to gain your life back ? What if when you cannot feel Him, He is standing right there beside you ? What if ? So many questions and I pray that when you cannot feel His hands or His presence, you will learn to trust His heart because He loved you enough to die for you on the cross.

Our feelings are always like a roller coaster ... up and down and up and down ..... going in circles. Do we need to feel God to know that He is for us ? Maturity comes when we know Him so well that in spite of the circumstances around or what our heart and mind tells us otherwise or how we feel ... we will hold on fiercely to God and still believe Him ... "God said it, I believe it, That settles it." That is when "Head" knowledge becomes "Heart" knowledge and that is when nothing can shake us anymore.

So my friend... you are not alone. I will walk with you in this journey called life. But there are times when there are paths you must walk on your own.... you and God. May God give me the wisdom to hold back and let God do what He must in your life because He loves you so much to let you remain this way.

Wednesday, 20 June 2007

Super zonked out and still jonah !

I was on call in ICU yesterday and I only slept about 1 hour .... hmmm I think my "jonah-ness" is still following me around. It was super busy .... the patients were unstable. There were lots of referrals from the other departments ..... I will be on call again in ICU this Saturday and I hope that I wont be so busy.

So guys .... it will take some time for me to upload the photos from my Redang trip... not looked through all the photos yet .... have a lot to share though ....

Ok gonna hit the sack now .... :D

Monday, 18 June 2007

I am back !!!

It is great to be back ... got myself a tan .... the phone line was down again and it was only fixed in the evening. So now I am arranging the photos and I will post them later.

Super tired from all the snorkeling and canoeing ... made a lot of new friends. I did not manage to do all the things I had listed out but overall I am really glad that I went and it was refreshing. Will write more later after I have arranged the photos.

I will be on call tomorrow .... I will be presenting my letter of appeal by end of this week. Do keep me in prayers.. thanks

God is good all the time !!!!

Wednesday, 13 June 2007

Yippee on the way to Redang tomorrow .....

Hi guys .... looking forward to trip to Redang tomorrow .... been checking out this website on Pulau Redang on how I am gonna spend my 4 days in Redang. Basically I will be on my own. The friend that I am going with will be scuba diving and unfortunately I am be staying with 3 other strangers. There will be a total of 8 of us going and all 7 will be scuba diving except me. Well he was giving me his reasons why I was put up with strangers instead of bunking with his group when he was the only person I know ...anyway it is ok ... a good time to make new friends.

So I have decided to make a list of things I will do to make this trip worthwhile in no particular order :

1. Quiet time with God ( my first priority )
2. Walks by the beach - day or night
3. Sit by the beach and admire God's creation
4. Photography ... lots and lots of photos ... a good time to practice..street photography etc
5. Snorkeling.... borrowed my sister's googles and the snorkel thingy
6. Cycling ... erm I think I will end up renting a bike instead
7. Jungle trekking ?
8. Finish the 5th book of Harry Porter ( if possible :D )
9. Callanetics in the mornings while enjoying the sunrise
10. Food :)
11. Finish the book "Total Heart Health for Men" - a Christian book
12. Think about how to tackle my coming exams in November on the last day in Redang
13. Think about how to tackle Poohbearee's tag ....hmmm

Things to bring

1. My Ipaq RW6828- coz my bible is loaded inside :D and you guys can still send me sms ... hehe ...hint hint
2. Canon 350D with all the lens and the polarizer lens not forgetting the batteries and charger
3. Canon IXUS V3 as backup camera
4. Sunblock - for face and body
5. Mosquito repellent
6. Underwear
7. T shirts
8. Shorts
9. Googles
10. Sandals
11. Slippers
12. Running shoes ?
13. Books
14. Tit bits
15. Mineral water
16. Money ( do they accept credit cards ? )

So do you guys have any other suggestions ..... thanks :D ... Wah already 12 pm ... I better get my butt out of my apartment to get all these stuffs :D

Sunday, 10 June 2007

An early Father's Day Celebration

We decided to have an early Father's Day Celebration as I will be in Redang next week and my father will be flying to Indonesia on some business deals. So sis and I took at drive back to Seremban. We went to a restaurant near Seremban Garden. Cheap and nice.

Cant remember what this vegetable is called ? Any idea anyone ?
Chicken with yam (Fatt Poot)
Fried Pork ribs ... my favorite !!!! (Pai Guat Wong)
Salty Pork.... (Ham Yue Zhue Yok)

I always treasure the time spent with family. Dad I am really proud of you and I love you so much and I am grateful for all that you have provided for me and taught me over the years.

Thursday, 7 June 2007

Oh how the years go by ....

Oh how the years go by - Amy Grant

In our times of trouble
We only had ourselves
Nobody else
No one there to save us
We had to save ourselves

And when the storms came through
They found me and you
Back to back together
And when the sun would shine
It was yours and mine
Yours and mine forever

And oh how the years go by
And oh how the love brings tears to my eyes
All through the changes the soul never dies
We fight, we laugh, we cry
As the years go by

There were times we stumbled
They thought they had us down
But we came around
How we rolled and rambled
We got lost and we got found
Now were back on solid ground

We took everything
All our times would bring
In this world of dangers
cause when your heart is strong
You know youre not alone
In this world of strangers

(repeat chorus)

And if we lose our way
Any night or day
Well well always be
Where we should be
Im there for you
And I know youre there for me

(repeat chorus twice)

As the years go by

Two weeks ago this was the song on repeat when I was driving back to Seremban to see my parents.... it brought tears to my eyes because God used the lyrics to speak straight to my was when I found out that I did not make it again for my primary exams...God reminded me again that the human spirit is resilient when He is the foundation .... and what had happened can make me stronger instead of making me down or depressed. God knows just the right song, the right person to send me a sms, a word or a phone call, a bible verse, a sermon.... He just knows me so well....and this journey was the turning point in my life ... things which used to break me ... not does not affect me anymore. Things which I was felt I was bound to, suddenly I dont feel the chains around me anymore... the feelings of loneliness and low self esteem which used to plague had lost their hold over me. I am more at peace with myself .... warts and all...and all these years God had been trying to tell me that it was ok ... that I just needed to let go and let Him take over instead of facing it in my own strength. I did not have to prove anything to Him or anyone...well He sure knows how to corner me and I will not have it any other way . Oh how the years go by and I can see how far God had brought me ..

The roster maker in my hospital had been really kind to me .... giving me time off to sort things out regarding my appeal for the my final attempt for the primary exams. I guess it finally sinked in .... the thought of having to go through the same ordeal again. It had been mentally tiring .... but next week I will be going to Redang for a 4 days trip with a friend and some strangers who will be going for scuba diving.... but it is ok ... I plan to go there and do some soul searching away from civilisation. Away from the internet, from the distraction at home and at work ... and just quiet my heart and mind before God. To draw strength from Him. The truth is anything can happen when I sit for the exams again in November if the appeal comes through. So therefore I am still waiting with uncertainty...the world is full of uncertainty ... life is full uncertainty...but one thing is certain ... is that my life is in His hands so no matter what happens or the outcome....I will rest in Him...the lover of my soul... I will trust His heart when I can't feel His hand in my life. So I am looking forward to Redang ... walks by the beach, sunrise and sunsets, just enjoying God and letting God enjoy me. Me and God walking hand in hand.

Do continue to keep me in prayer ..... appreciate it :D

Bike cleaning day....

I have been neglecting my bike for a couple of months now ... since I started preparing for my exams in May. There was once when I had not used my bike for so long that the battery died and the mechanic had to come push the bike to the shop ... and I blow about 200 bucks getting a new battery and regulator. I first started using the bike when I was working in GHKL .... super jam and sometimes I was stuck in the jam for 2 hours just to get home. So I decided to use a bike to work and I was able to get home in about 40 minutes. The only problem was when it rained ..but I got myself a thick rain coat and a full face helmet ... so it was not really a problem. It was really a crazy idea to ride a bike to work but it was liberating in a sense that I was not stuck in the jam and a lot of time was saved and it was less stressful than sitting in the car fuming away when I was stuck in a jam where I would move like 1 mm per min...not to mention the leg cramps I would get from driving. Therefore it is a must to get automatic transmission car in KL .. :D

So today I decided to wash the bike and also to remove the "L" sticker from the bike since I already obtained my full bike license.

The bike was extremely dirty. Good thing the water pipe was nearby so I was able to wash the bike with lots of water.
Bucket full of my secret weapons to tackle the layers of dirt ...
Time to remove the "L" license sticker
Washing in progress ....
Yippee .... managed to remove the "L" license sticker after scrubbing at it for like half an hour

The finished product :D

I guess I will start riding my bike to work again .....

Wednesday, 6 June 2007

Chin Swee Caves Temple at Genting Highlands

The next day I decided to go to Chin Swee Caves Temple to take some pictures ( the link regarding Chin Swee Caves Temple ) ... heard that there were some renovation going on and a lot of new attractions added in ( to tell you the truth I wont even know the difference coz I had not been to the Chin Swee Caves Temple in more than 15 years I think .... most of the time I just go to the theme park in Genting Highlands ). Took a slow slow drive up to Chin Swee Caves Temple ..... even the bus was having an easy time over taking me. I wanted to enjoy the free air ... did not turn on my air con. The temple was 7 km away from Awana Resort. But the time I reached about 10 am, the place was packed with people ... cars parked by the roadside. Alot of people. It also started to get very cloudy hence I just took whatever shots I could manage.
Construction in progress .... and me standing in the middle of the road again to get this shot. I better be careful so that I wont get hit by a car or a cow or whatever .... anyway anything to get the right shot and composition ...hehe
The Pagoda ..... cloudy day .....
Steps leading to the main court yard ....
Clouds .... I have always had a fascination with clouds ....
The way back down to Kuala Lumpur ....

And there ends my trip to Genting. Later on we drove back to KL where we had dinner at Esquire Kitchen and I drove my friend to KLIA for him to catch his flight back. It was a really exhausting weekend for me .... and it was raining cats and dogs during the weekend but it was worth it coz I was able to meet up and catch up with an old friend.