Sunday, 31 December 2006

Happy New Year 2007

Happy New Year to all ... wow the year passed by so fast ...... tomorrow it will be 2007. May all of us have a great year ahead .... may all the desires of our hearts come to pass.... may all our dreams come to true .... forgetting the past and moving on to what is in stored for us in 2007

Take care and God bless .....

PS .... erm I am working on New Year's Eve ..... it is has been like this since I started work as a medical officer. Never had the chance to do the countdown or watch the fire crackers. I am on call in maternity OT today .... I wonder how many New Year's Eve and New Year babies will be borned into this world....... it will be a great year ahead.......

Saturday, 30 December 2006

True Fitness here I come

Well guys .... my sister finally dragged me out of the house to check out some gyms so that I can finally make my dream of having a greek god body into reality. First we went to Fitness First which was situated in Summit but guess what we just could not find the entrance to the Fitness Fitness ... besides I did not like the idea of having to find a parking in Summit and then walking all over the place looking for the entrance.

Next we headed over to True Fitness and one of my close friends who is a member at True Fitness agreed to meet us there to show around and also hopefully can get a better deal. The guy who spoke to us about True Fitness was not pushy and he was really friendly. We went to see the facilities in True Fitness and True Yoga as my sister was interested in joining the yoga sessions only. Overall I felt comfortable at the atmosphere in TF ... there were not loud music blasting from 1st floor onwards. I liked the facilities offered. I like the fact that I could go for all the classes which are offered such as Pilates, BodyJam,etc... maybe I can finally put on my dancing shoes. Parking is not a problem for me as I will be using my bike and it is like 10 mins away from my place. I like the fact that they are open daily from 6 am till 12 midnight which I can use to my advantage due to my odd working hours.

Well finally we sat down and talked about the package. A second guy came to show us the plans and this guy is more pushy than the first but in the end thanks to my friend who is a member we managed to work out a plan which worked for me. I decided to join for 2 years which worked out to about RM 92 per month.

So True Fitness .... here I come !!!!!!

Wednesday, 27 December 2006

Some pictures taken from my church Christmas program

Some pictures taken at my church's Christmas presentation. It was an inhouse production. A musical drama about the significance of Christmas set in the 1950s at Limbok Street. The main theme was centred on this character named Ah Seng who had lost his father when he was young and he blamed God for it and later on when he was a teenager, his girl friend left him as he was being too materialistic instead of being God fearing. This drama talks about his journey back to God and how the love of God can break through any hardened hearts ......

PS .. all pictures taken with EOS 350D with Tamron 28-75 F2.8 lens with custom white balance at ISO 800 with shutter speed of 1/100 with flash 430EX

Tuesday, 26 December 2006

Wake up call

I have been having this headache for a week now .... panadol only gives temporary relieve. Last night I was kept awake by the headache .... this morning when I woke up ... I felt really funny ... headache, neck and shoulder pain.... decided to take my blood pressure and the reading was 190/140 mmHg... I never had any problems with my blood pressure and I have been having regular check ups...but this came as a shock to me and even right now I am still trying to accept it.

I drove to work praying that I wont stroke out along the way.... saw the doctor at the out patient department and was told that I will need to be started on medication after my blood investigations are ready which I will sending this coming morning for all the fasting blood test.

Came home tried to sleep ..... and continued to monitor my blood pressure which was in the range of systolic ( the upper part ) 140-150 and diastolic ( the lower part ) 90-110 mmHg..... it really freaked me out and I had asked my close friend, Haz to stand by to drive me to the hospital if the blood pressure keep climbing up.

Tomorrow I will go see the doctor again and I think I will need to be started medication to control the blood pressure and to do a thorough workup.

This really is a wake up call for me coz I have been procrastinating about joining a gym and taking care of my health. And it also makes me think if I should continue with my masters program if it will create more stress for me ..... so many things suddenly become NOT so important anymore as I had been taking my health for granted. I am praying that God will guide me and show me the right path and the right decision to make ..... do keep me in prayer....

Monday, 25 December 2006

Merry Christmas !!!!!

Jesus is the reason for the season !!!! Merry Christmas !!!!!!

Sunday, 24 December 2006

How does one ???

How does one regain back the focus when all bearings are lost ? How does one regain the passion and interest when they are lost ? How does one continue doing a task where one finds no more meaning in it ? How does one ......

Wednesday, 20 December 2006

No more "Thank You"

Nowadays simple manners such as "Thank you" or "I am sorry" etc is lacking. I was taught as a kid to say "thank you" when people do nice things for us. But sadly it is missing today in the society of fast food, the ME only syndrome, etc.

When I first started working as a doctor .... I had this noble idea of giving my life for the well being of others. I dont mind missing out on my sleep until I am a walking zombie to the point of having an out of body experience... I think if you pinch me at that moment... I wont even feel it, walking around with a distended bladder waiting to explode ( if it happens it will cause another major flash flood or should I say a mini Tsunami) or with an empty stomach the whole day until the point of having fine tremors and sweating and giddiness due to hypoglycaemia ( low blood sugar levels ) and the staff nurse had to tell me to go have my meal ... silly me thinking that "wah the staff nurses actually cared for my well being ... I was so deeply moved ... but on further questioning, the reason the staff nurse told me to eat was so that I wont collapse or else it will be a hassle for them to find another doctor to finish the work !!!!!! Duh !!!!! ) Thus here you know where the mentally that I am a "Hamba Allah" ( a term used to describe one as God's slave... where you have no needs but only live to give and serve to the point of death. ) And over the years, my noble idea had been bashed and eroded with each blow to my ideals. And the real world out there was a culture shock to me when I started working as a doctor. Thus it is easy to build up walls in order to protect yourself from further abuse..... no wonder some people say that doctor are not emotional.

And I had tried not to build too high a wall so that I still remain human and still be able to connect with my patients as I try to put myself in their shoes.... to come to their level... to alleviate fears or anxieties. But once in a while you come across different types of people which had been placed in your life on that day to test you to the limit !!!!! And today I meet this teacher who was in labour ... it is her first pregnancy. Epidural was offered to her to make her labour more bearable and pain free. And since I stepped into the room, she showed me a long long face ( and mind you I still have 24 hours to finish my call ) , she was not in pain. I tried to talk to her. Tried to break the ice. Explained the procedure to her. And proceeded to put in an epidural catheter for her which will deliver the epidural cocktail which will relieve the pain. And after everything was done and the pain taken care of ....... Not a single word from her lips .... No thank you... no nothing ..... If she had the epidural done in the private sector, it will cost her RM 800. Over here in the government, it cost her NOTHING. Anyway I cant control someone's actions but I can definitely control mine. So I gave her a smile and asked her if she feels better. She said the pain is gone and fell asleep.

I remind myself that as long God sees, I am happy. And that in the end of the day, my conscience is clear and that I have done the best for my patients, I can live with myself.......

Tuesday, 19 December 2006

Been busy

Sorry guys if I have been slow in updating as I have been busy trying to sort out things in my life. I have taken lots of pictures which I have to put up. Christmas is coming ....will be busy the whole week until Christmas is over and then in Jan I will move on to a new chapter in my life. Been doing the things that I had always wanted to do these past few days ... meeting up with friends ( had a blogger meeting with chen, jellyfish,will, alicia and agustus), a slow walk around Ikea ( erm not able to do it coz the last time I went, it was like a jungle out there .. kids running around all over the place ), read books on photography, catch up on the tons of book I bought about my Christian walk, to start excising again ( currently on the look out for a gym to join ) ... etc before I start hitting the books again after Christmas ..... will update asap

In the meantime ... Merry Christmas and Happy New Year and may God bless you all :D

Saturday, 16 December 2006

How do you make yourself happy ?

How do you make yourself happy ??? Care to share some pointers ?? Been busy with work again and fatigue is setting in again. In January a new episode in my life will begin and I want to live life to the fullest and really make use of the time that I have. Life is extremely short. Sometimes when I sit down and think too much ..... the world comes crashing in .... Lord give me the courage to move on and not look back and not think of "what if" but to think of "what I can learn and do now"

Tuesday, 12 December 2006

Some pictures taken at Melaka Zoo

Just wanted to share some pictures which I took at Melaka was a great time of practice for me. Walking around the zoo for 2 hours in the hot sun. Trying out different settings on my camera. All the shoots were taken with my tele zoom lens. No editing done. Just cropped and resized the pics......

Photography had been really relaxing for me since I stopped putting boundaries on myself about what I can and cant do in photography. I just go in the flow and enjoy and capture the moment as long as I am happy.

Monday, 11 December 2006

Back at work

After a long break ... I am finally back at work and I am on call in maternity OT today. I am hoping that it will not be so busy today as I am down with flu and fever......right now am popping in anti histamines and panadol like nobody's business.

Yesterday I received a very early Christmas present from a very dear friend who had lodged himself in a very special place in my heart. I thank God for giving me the brother I never had. It is amazing how He brings 2 people together to reflect His love and care. Yes it is through another human being, we can sense and experience God's love. So bro...thanks for being you and accepting me for who I am. For standing by me when I was not sure of myself and for loving me enough to tell me the truth. Now whenever I feel so alone, I remember that God has given me a brother who is there for me. So bro, have a great Christmas. You are in my thoughts and prayers always. Take care and God bless....

Friday, 8 December 2006

Sunlight ...... light always prevails

Took this picture while I was walking around taking pictures at a park. It reminds me that light always prevails. No matter how dark or bleak the situation is, the light of God always prevails, dispels and penetrates ... infusing us with inner strength and peace and with hope in a hopeless situation.

So easy to lose sight of Him and end up focusing on ourselves and the situation or the problems and forget that He is the Almighty God, the God Who makes a way where there is no way, the God who creates streams in the desert, the God of the impossible. I realise that I have made Him too small in my eyes sometimes. Sometimes I try to put God in a box so that I can understand Him and His way with my human mind which is so finite. But many times .... let me rephrase that ... ALL the time He had managed to blow me off my feet with His ways ..... with His intervention. Truly His ways and understanding is way too high for me to ever comprehend and if He were to explain it to me, I dont think I will understand. Therefore let God be God.

And yes Lord, Your love will always prevail. Even in the midst of loneliness, self hatred, low self esteem, lack of self confidence.... you name it and He will blow you away..... God's love is the ONLY thing which can set us free. He alone can make us complete and set us free.

Wednesday, 6 December 2006

Damnoen Saduak Floating Market

Just a preview of some of the pictures which I took at Damnoen Saduak Floating Market. I will post more after I have got the pictures sorted out and editted. The above 2 pics were not editted ... I just resized the pictures ....

I have been busy these few days after coming back from Bangkok...will try to post more pictures tomorrow

Good night and take k

Monday, 4 December 2006

Last day in Bangkok

I have been in Bangkok since Dec 1st. It was a memorable event to be able to attend my bro's wedding in Thai style in Bangkok on Dec 2nd. Today is the last day and how time flies when you are having fun. When I am back in Malaysia ..... finally I will need to sit down and plan out my next few months.

Will be flying back to Bangkok in the evening flight ...