Thursday, 30 November 2006

A visit to the dentist ... warning not for the faint hearted

Today I went to the dentist ..... with trembling I went to visit the dentist fearing the worst scenario as I had not gone to see a dentist in like years .... lost count already .... scared that I will get bombarded by the dentist concerning the condition of my teeth.

The dentist chair .... this gives me the creeps .... like getting sentenced to ...... u finish the sentence.

An innocent victim waiting to be examined and interogated by the dentist

Free drinking water ???? Hmmmmm


Tools for torture

More tools for torture

Erm ..... aiyak too bad cant run away .... been pinned down to the chair ..... tools of torture in the hands of an expert


The dentist's trophies of erm ..... guess what they are .....

Well I am pleased to inform you guys that I have survived the ordeal and remained intact ..... hehe and now I can show my pearly whites proudly ...

Crossroads part 2


Tomorrow I will be flying to Bangkok .... it had been a busy and tiring one week. Preparing for my brother's wedding which was over on Nov 25th. It took all of us a few days to recover. Some of us (my sister,her best friend and boyfriend) have to work on Mondays. I am fortunate that I am able to take leave until my Bangkok trip.

I needed this break ..... even in the midst of running around preparing for my bro's wedding and recovering from the exhaustion ... one thing remained at the back of my mind..... what should my next move be for the next few months..... and how do I go about doing it so that I can accomplish what I have on my mind. A dear friend reminded me again that it is NOT what I want to do, but what does God want to do in my life. What is His will? What does He say about the situation that I am in ? Have I placed myself in a position to hear His voice? Have I stopped looking at my own abilities, strengths and weaknesses to see the situation through God's eyes ? I hope the find the answer these next few days....because I want to make the next few months count and I want to go in the will of God. I dont want to keep going against an invisible wall and go through the same cycle again. Whatever happens, I thank God for this chance to be moulded and strengthen through what He has allowed in my life inspite of my weaknesses. I will keep going on ... this journey called life and stop to smell the roses that He had planted along the way to remind me of His grace and goodness.

When I look back at what I had gone through these few years since I started my masters program .... there are not regrets ... only praises and "thank you" offered unto God Who has in His mercy and grace enabled me to face the things that had held me back all these years .... He is not done with me yet. I pray that I will be able to walk in step with Him so that I will not miss out what He has instored for me.

I thank Him for my family which remain as my constant support and cheer leader :D and also for the people who had read my blog and have become my dear friends who had supported me and cheered me along ..... yup unexpected friends ... who came at the right time to help me along in this journey. You know who you are .... and you hold a special place in my heart. All praises and glory go to God Who is a giver of good things .... thank You Jesus...

So guys please pray along with me so that I can know what is on His heart for me and that I will go in obedience in His strength and not in my own limited strength ... thanks :D

Sunday, 26 November 2006

Introducing Mr and Mrs Seet




Introducing Mr and Mrs Seet ... my brother got married on 25th November 2006. It was a great event..... till today I am still speechless that my younger brother finally got married and I am so excited and happy for me. I wish them happiness and that the desires of their hearts will come through and I cant wait to hold my first niece/nephew .... hint hint ....

By the time it was over .... all of us were zonked out and we slept the whole day on Sunday. I slept after coming back from church....

More to come later ... stay tuned

Bro just got married

Phew ... it had been exhausting these past few days but it was worth it ..... my younger bro got married yesterday to a lovely girl ..... will post some pics and more of the wedding later ... cheers ..... wow I need massage now .... maybe I will just pop into an OSIM showroom and try out their massage chairs :D

Tuesday, 21 November 2006

On leave for my bro's wedding

My leave starts tomorrow for my bro's wedding .... I am really excited about it ..... but of course at the back of my mind ... I am still thinking of what I should do about my last attempt ... should I go in campus as it will take me some time to get adjusted to the new place or continue in GHKL as I have got used to the place an it is like a 2nd home to me now. I did speak to the head of the department and she is very supportive. So guys do pray for me and pray that I will make the right decision and may His will alone be done.

Ok in the meantime I will just think about my bro's wedding .....

Friday, 17 November 2006

Crossroads

Well guys .... I just got my results and I did not make it again..... will take the few days to think about my future plans ..... Crossroads ....

Do pray for me ... thanks

Thursday, 16 November 2006

Finally I am done

Hey guys thanks for the prayers, support, phone calls, sms, emails, etc ... I am finally done and I am proud of myself .... so from now onwards I am gonna keep myself busy ... photography, wanna take up piano again, gym ...etc ....... and when the results come out tomorrow ..... oh well I will face it when I get there ..... and I think I have a good chance this time. By God's grace .... I did what I could and left the rest in His hands.

Ok I am gonna try to catch the James Bond movie at 6 pm and then go for cell group meeting at 830-1030 pm ... after that gonna go eat lok lok and maybe meet up with a friend later for photoshooting .... hmmm I should try out some night shots ..... so much to do and so little time .... hehe

Ok cya .... Cheers ...

Life is short .... live now to the fullest ... you only got one chance

Tuesday, 14 November 2006

Dedicated to a dear friend ..... you are loved


Josh Groban - Don't give up ( you are loved )

Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world
When your heart’s heavy, I
I will lift it for you
Don’t give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you, I
I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can’t hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved

Don’t give up
It’s just the hurt
That you hide
When you’re lost inside, I
I’ll be there to find you

Don’t give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you I
I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can’t hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don’t give up
Because you are loved

You are loved

Don’t give up
It’s just the weight of the world

Don’t give up
Everyone needs to be loved

You are loved



I have just completed my theory papers today ... tomorrow I will be having my vivas on Wed and Thurs. And I will free as a bird by Thursday afternoon ... yippeee..... after the theory exams ... a few of us met up and go our brains fried by practising viva with one another till evening and we had dinner together.... there is so much I dont know ... or rather what I know is ALL jumbled up there in my brain now .... hopefully tomorrow it will all be systemically arranged waiting to be poured out in front of the examiner but whatever the outcome .... I am much happier and the peace of God guards my heart and mind.

But what have been bugging me was a dear friend who is also sitting for exams with me ..... both of us had failed before and we are now going for the 3rd attempt. It is not easy to maintain the same intensity when we are reading the same stuffs over and over again and yet still dont remember much of it ..... duh ....anyway I thank God that this experience had made me stronger and He had made me face things about myself which I normally would have just swept under the rug ..... and that experience is worth it and priceless ....

Well back to my friend. She asked me "Will you still love me if I dont make it as specialist? Will you still be my friend? People will look at me different if I dont make it? I am such a failure.... I am hopeless" It just cuts my heart to see my friend like that because that was exactly what I went through and by His grace .... He had showed me that all that matters is what God thinks of me. It really hurt me to see my friend like that .... she is actually a bubbly person .... funny...gorgeous ( she thinks she is the ugly ducking)..... and a sincere friend. I am surprised that sometimes that this masters program could do this to her ..... made her doubt herself. Look down on herself...... and I told her that just because you dont make it as a specialist, it does not mean that you are a failure. You are already a doctor. Maybe this is just not meant for you. And if you have friends who ignore you just because you did not make it as a specialist ...then they are not true friends at all .......I can see all that I am trying to tell her is falling on deaf ears because she was too caught up in her plight .... not seeing a way out ... only a dead end.

And to my friend.... my love, support and prayers goes out to you. And I will stand by your side, come what may because you are loved for who you are ... not what you are. And I pray that someday you will be able to see that you are precious and a gem of a person and dont let anyone or anything ever make you feel like a failure or worthless. Because you are loved.

And today I say a prayer for you ...... and I dedicate this song to you ...... you are loved ...


Monday, 13 November 2006

Kit Kat Ice Cream

No wonder I am getting fatter nowadays during my exams .... junk food, ice cream, whatever to keep my sugar high so that my brain can function but then my waist also increasing ..... duh ..... seriously need to go to the gym...

Anyway just wanted to share about this little kit kat sticking out of an ice cream ... innovative idea .... coz Kit Kat is my favorite chocolate and now you can have it together with an ice cream .... so before I eat it up though I will just snap a pic to share with u guys ... how yummy it looks....

Verdict .... go get one now !!!!

PS had to use that red cover to stop the ice cream from rolling around so I could take the pic....

KFC - original flavour

Just came back from sitting for one of my papers and suddenly had a craving for KFC ... actually been dreaming about it since last night but it was too late to get. So today I went ahead and got myself a dinner place consists of 3 pieces of KFC .... yummy ..... this is one of the simple things in life which I take pleasure in ..... cant wait to sink my teeth into the drumstick....

Ok guys .... gonna chow down the KFC .... cheers and have a great day......

By the way which flavor do u like ? Original or Hot and Spicy ?

Sunday, 12 November 2006

When do I stop?

When do I stop ? When do I call it quits ? When all the passion and motivation have gone ? When I have lost the focus and the direction in the things I used to enjoy doing ? When do I say that this is not for me ? When will I wake up to the fact that I am going against an invisible wall ? Is there shame in admitting that this is not for me ? Or is it courage to finally face the truth and move on to something else ............

Yippee ... added labels in Blogger

Hi guys ... I have added labels in my blog .... so you can just click right away on different labels to get to the postings ..... will sort all the posting after my exams .... for now the newer entries will be labeled.

Have a great day.....

Cheers

Saturday, 11 November 2006

Josh Groban - AWAKE




I have been following Josh Groban's career since he launched his first album and all I can say is GO BUY THIS NEW ALBUM NOW !!!!!! He keeps getting better with each new release ...... wow
Ok enough said .... you can buy the internet edition only from here. Check out his website.

Mom's cookies of love

As my brother's wedding is just around the corner.... mom and sis started baking cookies to be given as door gifts to the guests who will be attending my bro's wedding ...... yup a mother's love always never cease to amaze me ..... the cookies are heart shaped :)

PS These are cheese cookies sprinkled with ground nuts on top ...yummy

Wednesday, 8 November 2006

Amazed


Phillips Craig & Dean - Amazed Song Lyrics


You dance over me,
While I am unaware.
You sing all around,
But I never hear the sound.
Lord, I'm amazed by you
Lord, I'm amazed by you
Lord, I'm amazed by you
How you love me.
You paint the morning sky
With miracles in mind
My hope will always stand
For you hold me in your hand
Lord I'm amazed by you
Lord I'm amazed by you
Lord I'm amazed by you
How you love me.
Lord I'm amazed by you
Lord I'm amazed by you
Lord I'm amazed by you
How you love me.
How wide, how deep, how great, is your love for me.
How wide, how deep, how great, is your love for me.

Lord I'm amazed by you
Lord I'm amazed by you
Lord I'm amazed by you
How you love me.
Lord you love me.



This song has been playing since morning when I got up this morning..... just a couple days more before my exams...... as usual so many thoughts going through my mind ... like I should have prepared earlier, why is the cycle repeating itself, why am I still stuck, what will people think, will I make it this time, do I have to go through this again ??? ..... etc etc ...... it is easy to just give in to self pity and dwell in it and waste whatever precious time I have left.... though I might not make it again this time ...but the lessons learned it worth the struggle. As I was trying to analyse where I had gone wrong in how I am approaching this Masters program, how I am dealing with my studies and life and how to go about squeezing whatever material left into my degenerating brain ..... this song came ..... and then I realised that I don't need to have all the answers .... that I need not be perfect .... and that He alones holds the answers ... He alone matters ...... and all I could do was worship Him .... to tell Him that I am amazed and that I loved Him.... yes I am amazed .... that He dances over me .... He gets so excited over me..... while I am unaware ... while I am so caught up in my own life struggles ... He dances over me telling me how much He loves me with all my weaknesses and failures and faults ....and that it is OK .... yes it is ok .... He whispers gently into my heart .. " It is ok Son, stop struggling. Stop trying to be someone you are not. Stop hating yourself or blaming yourself. Stop thinking about the past. I love you my Son. It is ok." And the tears will not stop flowing like a dam broken .... He is cleansing and healing me in my deepest part ......... healing begins ........ yes finally ..... finally..... it is ok..... it really is ......

Monday, 6 November 2006

Emptiness



Just a couple days more to go ....but suddenly today I feel so empty ... so alone .....

Wednesday, 1 November 2006

Pray for me

Hey guys ...do keep me in prayer

Exams in another 10 days but my mind seems to be wandering around .... oppss

So please pray for peace, discipline and perseverance and confidence .....

Thanks alot

Cheers

Over and out