Hmmm was thinking about this question the whole day.... I was reminded why I blogged ... I started off wanted to tell of the goodness of God in my life ... yes in all my imperfection He loves me so unconditionally.
Oh my wandering heart .... so easy to stray from Him ... from the One person Who alone can fill the void/emptiness in me ... but yet I sometimes go around looking for substitutes to fill that aching void inside ... that is what I realise as I started reading other blogs .... all of us hurt and all of us have an emptiness within which need to be filled ..... we try to fill it many things (alcohol, drugs, sex, chocoloates, whatever to numb the pain) and yet we are not satisfied .... yeah we go looking for the next "fix" ...
We all want to be loved and to love and we will do whatever to get that sometimes ... I have done it too ... made a fool of myself ... a fool for love ... just to belong ... just to feel wanted ..... little did I know that I needed to realise that I belong to God ... and that I need not jump around and do things to win His heart as He already loves me anyway ... and that assurance gave me to peace to start loving myself and this enable me to love others with no string attached .... yeah He gives abundantly....
Yes it hurts ... life hurts ...... love hurts ..... when we make ourselves vulnerable to others ... we get hurt .... but hurt we must if we are ever to truly appreciate love ... yes we all need to go through it .... in the end do we want to continue to love and get hurt or shut the whole world out and keep to ourselves .... no man is an island and we all know that and feel that .... I am single and there are times I feel really lonely ... due the nature of my work ... when I am free .. my friends are not .. when I am working ... my friends are free .... and I work also during public holidays ... but life goes on ... yes the world still spins round and round.....
Well back to the reason why I blog... I am very forgetful and when I go through hard times I sometimes forget that God had brought me through so much in life. And this blog is a reminder to me about how far I have come in life ... yes still a long way to go ... unless some mishap occur in my life ... duh .... yes it is a reminder to me that whatever hard times or trials or headache or obstacles .... I will finally get throught it someday .... like after winter there is always spring ... yes there is always light at the end of the tunnel ... therefore I will continue to blog to remind myself to move on with life and not lose heart at setbacks because tomorrow is a new day and there is always hope when I dont give up ...... Life is meant to be lived to the fullest with it sweetness and bitterness ... and in the end I will emerge stronger ... and wiser ... hopefully .... so come let's walk together, you are not alone ... I am your fellow traveler ....
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